Kid by Jescie Hall
Publication date: January 6th, 2023
Pages: 533
Spice: 🌶️🌶️🌶️
Synopsis:
Addiction is my weakness.
A cruel temptress that follows me wherever I go.
Slowly dragging me down until I drown.
Until she shows up.
Johanna.
My life preserver in this ocean of drugs and madness.
She's a total enigma, as chaotic as they come. A vixen who lives her life without limits.
But her demons are greater than mine, and they threaten to drown her right alongside me.
I need her as much as she needs me.
We can either hang on and save each other, or we can both sink into oblivion, letting our pasts, our memories, our addictions be the anchor that weighs us down.
Contains mature content, including heavy drug use, self-inflicted pain, trauma, and graphic sexual content.
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Review:
Kid was not really looking for a change in his life. He was happy with the partying scene which combined all his favorite things, alcohol, drugs, and women, lots and lots of women. But all it took was stumbling upon the woman of his dreams making out with another girl to disrupt his entire world. Johanna aka "Han" was on another level. She never let anyone get close to her for longer than a night but with Kid's addictive personality one hit of his new drug of choice was never going to be enough. Now he just had to convince Han to put her rule book to the side and open up to him the way she never has with anyone else. The duo is locked in a world of self-discovery, healing through the pain, and embracing the darkness in hopes of seeing the light within each other.
I will admit, about half of this book I was not sure if I even wanted to finish it. I didn't find anything even remotely likeable about Kid or Han. They just seemed like two broken people who broke in different ways trying to make their jagged pieces fit together. Of course if one of those people is an obsessed welder, any pieces can fit together at that point. I felt more than once that these two were absolutely toxic for each other and almost hoped that they were merely a long stepping stone to finding someone much better for them both. Eventually, I was in too deep waiting for something better to come along that I decided to finish the book. I felt Kid was very immature straight down to demanding to impregnate Han over and over. You've known her or a few months and already wanting to have kids with her? It was the same with Han who collected road kill to give them proper burials randomly. They were both five pounds of crazy in ten pound bags. It was hard to really relate to either of them.
There were moments when the intimate scenes were fade to black which really perplexed me when they got to some extremely raunchy scenes. The perspective switched suddenly from Kid to Han in the last few chapters which really threw me off, especially when there was no announcement at the top of the chapter, I had to figure out who was speaking through context clues. I feel the book should have either been duel POV from the start or all Kid's perspective through the whole thing so it wasn't so confusing.
While there was a lot wrong with the story and the characters were not my favorites, there was the chance to see Hawke and Cole again which is really what saved the book entirely for me. I liked best when Kid was interacting with Hawke and Cole. It wasn't rooted in his obsession but genuine respect and care for his friends. That was what made the book more palatable. I never grew any fondness for Han. I felt sympathy for her and her plight but never really grew to like her. Kid got some bonus points especially when it came to his quick application of aftercare.
All in all, I feel the book was a good dip back into the world of Hawke and Cole which I loved but unless you want to root through a story that reads like a bad trip on LSD I would likely give this one a pass.